I had found someone who showed me the meaning of true happiness. I just couldn't believe that, in the end, that same someone would also show me the meaning of true misery....
If I could turn back time, I would have taken it slow - just give myself to someone a little at a time. But that is not me. I always give my all. Too bad, some would take me and spit me out like I'm the most undesirable person in the world.
Jan. 24, 2009 - Love made me drink until I was inebriated then said to me it's not right for me. I do not know if it was just being a coward because it wants an easy way out or it does not want me to get hurt. But when my system was cleared, the hurt flooded me immensely. Now there are a million questions in my head and a million more words I wish I have said.
Things I have said, things I have done or should have done - does it matter anymore? I am hurt! The what if's and if only's in my head seem trivial compare to what I am feeling now. But why am I still thinking about them?...
